That night im hurt by some words! Trust me, that is really hurting. As a friend, i know you concern and care for me. But that sentence hurt me and i cried. I'm not lying. Thank for your concern and care. I mean it. =) The words of concern which is suppose to warm me, turn out to pain me. Perhaps u're right, something must be going wrong somewhere. But can not admit that, things that are for me is NOT right in the first place?

Ya! I have to work much harder than what other did, just to get the same achievement! Ya! I have to work 100000x more than other. Ya! I have to look at the bright side cause where i'm standing is dark, unlike other.Ya! Work harder is the only description in my life. BUT WHY?

Why is that so? Yes, you're goin to tell me that I'm going to start complaining, starting to .....again and again BUT ... can you understand what i'm goin through here? I KNOW! your answer for me is to " be optimistic", "look at the brighter side", "someone out there is worst than you , ger..." why are you not comparing someone who is better than me?

Ignore my complain! Ignore my nonesense! After all, I can't change anything.
Thank my frenz. I will be fine. no worried =)